I would like to comment to your post with a lot of quotes and stuff, but I just don't think it will matter. I don't really want to, actually, because deep in my heart I really don't care. It was my humanity taking over, that wanted me to be right so badly and wanted me to discuss and tried to show Vicky that I was right. The truth is that I don't know anything at all about anything at all.
I will tell you this in all honesty:
I acknowledge the fact that practically everything of what I said, was own perception. I certainly have not studied the subject and honestly everything I said in the whole discussion was probably complete BS objectively. I was so much into my own opinion that I was trying to convince myself that what I was saying was completely true and nothing else is. I was narrowing my own mind to make my point come over as believable as possible. It is something a lot of people do and I notice it a lot. Probably you people now have the same reaction to my former statements as I sometimes have in other situations where I tend to actually know something about (not that I really know something about anything). I'm just a simple person who sometimes thinks he's more than that, but it's this kind of discussions that make me realize that I'm actually just one of the many stupid others out there.
This is probably the weakest thing a person can do in a discussion, but I just wanted to say this. I'm sick of defending my own stupidity and my own fake morality.
The truth is:
I really don't care about the cat in the picture. I have no inner feeling telling me that it's wrong. I'm a very indifferent person. Can you judge me? Of course you can. You can even hate me for it. I'm saying it as it is:
I don't care about the cat at all. I also don't care about seeing someone getting killed in a video. I don't feel anything and I can't do anything about it. Actually, to be honest, I never felt anything about anything in my whole life. It's quite depressing really. I would NEVER kill anyone myself, but I just don't care about it when it happens and it doesn't affect me. The only thing I actually care about is my own world and what affects me. It's extremely rotten to say this and my god, I don't really know why I'm saying this here, but it's just true. Excuse me for what I actually feel. I can't help it, I wish I could.
I admire people who are not like me and who can feel more for people/animals that they don't know.
Why was I defending the dog then? Simply because I like dogs and because I imagined myself in the situation of the dog's boss. There's nothing rational about it. My own person really doesn't care what happened. I just don't want it to happen to me ever and that's why I'm saying it is wrong. Do I really care myself? Na-ah.
Probably you've read my post until now, because what I wrote is so shocking and because it's so unbelievable, but it's all true.
You might describe me as egocentric. That would probably be the right word to describe me. I'm indifferent to pretty much everything else. Is it dangerous? I don't think so. In my opinion the universe is indifferent (that's what I think, not hope), so my indifference won't make a lot of difference.
I want to believe there is something more than just all this indifference and I hope one day I really believe in it, but right now, in this phase of my life, I just can't see the light. There is no overruling morality, there is just nothing. It makes me cynical, it makes me not care about anything. It's just me right now. Is it insanity? I don't know.
I'm 19 years old and most of you are a lot older than me. I'm happy to see that you are all thinking differently than me now. I hope I will someday reach your level of awareness. It might add some color to my very gray existence that I have right now.
I don't even know why the hell I'm typing this all out on a movie forum that I really enjoy, but it's 5:53 AM and I just don't care anymore. Most of you will probably think I'm crazy now. Maybe I am.
It's funny how a small, moral discussion about a cat makes me realize my own inner emptiness and rotenness. I actually realized it already but I just wanted to out it, because Sleezy made some very valid condemnations.
I'm not going to read back what I just wrote. I hope I didn't offend anyone and there are probably some very shocking and controversial things in it that I wish I hadn't said, but this are my really honest thoughts right at this moment.
I guess this whole text could be seen as looking for attention. It's actually really really sad what I'm doing here, because people should keep their thoughts to themselves, but this is just an internet forum and nobody knows who I am, so what the hell. I'm already judging myself for all this.
Unnecessary.
Here is a song that expresses my feelings very well:
Yours truly,
Cobpyth
PS: this is probably the wrongest topic ever for a deep confession about the inner feelings, but I just went for it. You only live once.
I will tell you this in all honesty:
I acknowledge the fact that practically everything of what I said, was own perception. I certainly have not studied the subject and honestly everything I said in the whole discussion was probably complete BS objectively. I was so much into my own opinion that I was trying to convince myself that what I was saying was completely true and nothing else is. I was narrowing my own mind to make my point come over as believable as possible. It is something a lot of people do and I notice it a lot. Probably you people now have the same reaction to my former statements as I sometimes have in other situations where I tend to actually know something about (not that I really know something about anything). I'm just a simple person who sometimes thinks he's more than that, but it's this kind of discussions that make me realize that I'm actually just one of the many stupid others out there.
This is probably the weakest thing a person can do in a discussion, but I just wanted to say this. I'm sick of defending my own stupidity and my own fake morality.
The truth is:
I really don't care about the cat in the picture. I have no inner feeling telling me that it's wrong. I'm a very indifferent person. Can you judge me? Of course you can. You can even hate me for it. I'm saying it as it is:
I don't care about the cat at all. I also don't care about seeing someone getting killed in a video. I don't feel anything and I can't do anything about it. Actually, to be honest, I never felt anything about anything in my whole life. It's quite depressing really. I would NEVER kill anyone myself, but I just don't care about it when it happens and it doesn't affect me. The only thing I actually care about is my own world and what affects me. It's extremely rotten to say this and my god, I don't really know why I'm saying this here, but it's just true. Excuse me for what I actually feel. I can't help it, I wish I could.
I admire people who are not like me and who can feel more for people/animals that they don't know.
Why was I defending the dog then? Simply because I like dogs and because I imagined myself in the situation of the dog's boss. There's nothing rational about it. My own person really doesn't care what happened. I just don't want it to happen to me ever and that's why I'm saying it is wrong. Do I really care myself? Na-ah.
Probably you've read my post until now, because what I wrote is so shocking and because it's so unbelievable, but it's all true.
You might describe me as egocentric. That would probably be the right word to describe me. I'm indifferent to pretty much everything else. Is it dangerous? I don't think so. In my opinion the universe is indifferent (that's what I think, not hope), so my indifference won't make a lot of difference.
I want to believe there is something more than just all this indifference and I hope one day I really believe in it, but right now, in this phase of my life, I just can't see the light. There is no overruling morality, there is just nothing. It makes me cynical, it makes me not care about anything. It's just me right now. Is it insanity? I don't know.
I'm 19 years old and most of you are a lot older than me. I'm happy to see that you are all thinking differently than me now. I hope I will someday reach your level of awareness. It might add some color to my very gray existence that I have right now.
I don't even know why the hell I'm typing this all out on a movie forum that I really enjoy, but it's 5:53 AM and I just don't care anymore. Most of you will probably think I'm crazy now. Maybe I am.
It's funny how a small, moral discussion about a cat makes me realize my own inner emptiness and rotenness. I actually realized it already but I just wanted to out it, because Sleezy made some very valid condemnations.
I'm not going to read back what I just wrote. I hope I didn't offend anyone and there are probably some very shocking and controversial things in it that I wish I hadn't said, but this are my really honest thoughts right at this moment.
I guess this whole text could be seen as looking for attention. It's actually really really sad what I'm doing here, because people should keep their thoughts to themselves, but this is just an internet forum and nobody knows who I am, so what the hell. I'm already judging myself for all this.
Unnecessary.
Here is a song that expresses my feelings very well:
Yours truly,
Cobpyth
PS: this is probably the wrongest topic ever for a deep confession about the inner feelings, but I just went for it. You only live once.
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Cobpyth's Movie Log ~ 2019
Cobpyth's Movie Log ~ 2019