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Chris Cornell.
His recent death was devastating to me. I supposed I'm a child of the 90s. I grew up in a poor county school before the internet. My only outlet was music, and at that time it was Nirvana, Pearljam, STP, Alice in Chains, and of course Soundgarden. Emotion, angst, addictive personalities, and depression were common themes in their lyrics and while it may have been a bit trendy, those thoughts were very familiar to me. In time, it seemed that death would claim one artist after another. For the longest time I looked up to Chris Cornell for his lyrics, for surviving his own demons, and for overcoming those darker depressions that appeared to be claiming so many talented individuals of his generation through addictions and suicide. I've always been weak to my own bouts with depression. It comes and goes, but when it does come, it is strong. I looked to Cornell as someone who carried his burden, finding ways to channel it through his music and writing, effectively diffusing its power over him. That was incredibly inspiring to me. I mean to say that he found a way through the darkness that so many others failed to do. He was able to succeed in spite of his demons. In part because of this, I have found a great outlet through my own writing and music as well, and I hope to keep my head above water when life overwhelms.
Then I learned he had passed through suicide, and all that inspiration was drawn to a halt. In the end, he did not succeed. He did not escape.
I remember reading many comments at the time expressing similar confusion and loss of hope in his death. I believe many people commonly lost in depression looked to him as a role model of how to stay above it all.
So, yeah. I would like to have stopped that. Barring that, I am hoping Eddie Vedder passes quietly in old age one morning, sitting on his porch with a ukulele in hand and a final thumbnail of a song next to him on his phone.
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