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In this solstice I like to go to bed earlier.
I take a shower with the lights off and the window open, yes, my bathroom has a small window, trough that window I can see the mountain, the birds going away to their nests all hurried up.
I'll be in bed one hour before pitch black darkness. I close the curtains, but the light comes in, I can see it in the ceiling, and trough the door on the floor.
I imagine that when it's pitch black, the outside is not a safe zone, monsters and the mysterious creatures of the night come out and my bedroom, and the windows outside are the only safe zone to be.
Last night it softly raining, and I was watching this heavy atmosphere while I was taking a shower, the fog on the top of the mountain, like the forest was breathing. That intensifies this imaginary environment I created.
This helps me sleep better, or have a better experience before. I think I took this from films like, It Comes At Night, and I Am Legend and maybe a video game I played for an hour, Minecraft, you had to build something to sleep before night comes and the monster comes for you. Maybe that's why they make such movies, they are cozy to me, maybe not for most people. By the way, if you know more movies like this, please reply.
I've always been in a crossroad between what is, and what it could be, in other words, how the world is, without any theory, name, what it actually is, and how I can make it in my imagination. Some people think, maybe me included, that you only need to make a fantasy world, a imaginary world when you can't accept and view how the real one is. It's like a weakness. When I was younger I believed that people should loose themselves in their imagination, in the hope, but never get there, if you never get there you're always hoping and you never suffer from disappointment. But then I started to see that people only hope when they are in despair, that's why they create these things, a comfort, a state of mind, a god.