concupescent is indeed sexual, PLite

. ah, i do believe i first encountered that word in a Clive Barker novel.
Chris - "Loyal is such a vauge word, really. Loyal means you'll stick to them, but I was trying to convey this: I'm willing to really invest myself in people I am loyal to, if need be, but if they cross me, betray me, or something of the sort, I'm done. I'll never be able to trust them quite the same way. I'll forgive them if it ever happens, but it'll never be the same.
Basically, I am loyal to people who I believe will not try to do such things. I know the above paragraph sounds bitter, but I've never had a disturbing experience with betrayal or anything of the sort. "
I don't think loyal's at all vague. Vague are the terms in which you'd apply it, for they're fluid and different for everyone.
But no, you don't sound bitter. It's the same with me and I HAVE had people betray me - family, friends. It's a very painful thing. Teaches you to pick and choose your friends *very* wisely. And I agree, you don't trust them the same way. You may forgive, but you *never* forget. To forget is to repeat that same mistake with someone else. But yes, when you are careful with whom you choose to take into your heart, you are much less likely to be wounded. Then again, you can never predict ...
And that's life. You try to find the line between wisdom and being jaded. Don't close out so many others that you never enjoy life and make friends ... then again, don't let so many in that you get trampled, used, and broken...