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I had drink more than i ever did this last 2 years, i have attain a point of dependance who turn out to make me sick this last 6months where i couldn't have any control beside trying to reduce, i never in my life had let this happen, i am strong enough to cut it out before i get into this nasty circle, my fiance then had tremendous psycho drama episodes and dellusion and he continnuesly would accuse me of cheating over nothing over and over, i dont think i have never seen anything like it! he ll threat people, call at night, show up at my door cussing and screaming, anyways very psychotic, i realize then that my drinking got higher and each time i ll try to go back to a decent state of alchoolism he ll bring me more and more alchool and attention, same about my weight i ll spend all day working out and he ll bring me fast food...funny how some people arent strong enough to deal with their own issue so they need to suck on someone else for their sorrow, i took charge and reverse the process, i cant let my feeling take over body and soul and drinking habbit, if someone is to weak to not even being able to make you feel good on a daily basis then they shouldnt make you feel less of the person cause he cant deal with himself, i believe in god, in karma and in good!! i think cruelty is somehting a weak person choose to do because they to afraid of living life truly and they live with fear of their own self everyday! its sad but there is tone of thoses out there! take control take charge! dont be a downer, life is to precious....