There's absolutely reasons for why my view changed. There's absolutely reasons for why it now works for me. Obviously, as I've stated, in the past, this way of thinking wouldn't have clicked with me. It would have been too ... hard to accept. Depressing. Life destroying, maybe. Would have driven me insane to believe it every day.
That still doesn't mean I'm wrong, though. I could believe my whole life that if I rode a roller coaster, I would be killed during the ride. Then things could change and I could believe that the roller coaster ride wouldn't kill me - and then I'd ride one and manage to survive the ride. Not really a good example because I'm sure a roller coaster ride actually WOULD kill me (I hate them) but, most likely, it wouldn't. The point is, you can change your beliefs and turn out to be correct.
Now, I think I see what you're saying -- I could be wrong about this no free will thing. And I
might be. But should I really spend the rest of my life pondering that and maybe try to adjust to the possibility of free will even more?
It
would be a lot better, I think, if there was free will. Because to not have it is, I think, horrendous. But if it's true (that there's no free will), I could imagine humanity adopting a comforting system for people so that they wouldn't turn to despair -- something like,
"You never know what amazing things life will bring you. " We already have systems like that, in fact, but they often -- at least to me -- aren't against a background of something that's trying to say,
"Be happy FOR LIFE IS NOTHING BUT CHAOS!!!" So, maybe the idea of no free will could be adopted to be something positive. Then maybe it wouldn't be so horrendous.
I like the idea of freedom -- but I think it also comes with its own complications, too. I've spent thirty years believing in freedom. But I think it failed me. Had I always never believed in freedom... my life, I'm sure ('cause I believe in no free will now) would be different. Don't know if it would have been better.
But I also take a metaphysical approach to this idea of no free will right now, too, which I'm absolutely not gonna try to convince to everyone is correct, though I could share it (and I have). My faith -- which I absolutely admit might be something I just need right now, but it could be true -- is that everything happens for a reason, basically. That the universe directs our lives. That the universe directs everything. Thus, I'm here right now believing in all of this for a reason. Thus, you're here discussing it with me right now -- strangely out of the blue, it seems, since you haven't been posting here in awhile. I think there's a purpose for this.
Maybe free will or no free will ultimately don't even matter. We could all be... cosmic creators of the universe or something weird like that. Maybe the "harshness" you speak of is taking it too extreme. Maybe there's an extra, unknown layer of reality of something hard to explain like that. Something that gives reason for the seemingly random. I don't know.
But the "no free will" thing -- I say it doesn't have to be so harsh. And of course, you see, I've brought my own little bag of metaphysical items to attach to it. I used to believe in our lives being fated before -- but with an actual God involved. And with a lot of hope that great things would come my way. And believing in this stuff was WONDERFUL. Wonderful.
Now, I think I can sort of believe in it all again. It's a little harder to feel wonderful about it, but I tell you, the other day, before I made my first post in this thread, I was thinking about it and I was suddenly overcome by such joy that I hadn't really felt in a long time. That inspired me, probably, to post all of this stuff here. Things *clicked*. I'm sure it's not gonna click with everybody. In fact, maybe I should stop before I drive everyone to despair, because probably not everyone could handle this like I can now. But I felt the need to share. And, maybe I was meant to.