I used to eat, breathe, sweat, and think of nothing but cinema—I loved it. It was a major passion and additive to my life. This was years and years ago, maybe ten or more. But because of mental illness and addiction I lost sight of it... and I feel like a drummer without his drum. I found faith during this time, and it's helped me personally, but I still feel without my purpose. Recently I came on here again, but suffered another mental issue, and words were exchanged and I feel regrettably terrible for those words and who I said them to. I did make amends and it did seem they were well received, but truth told even on my last visit here I wasn't really "watching" movies—I was just re-hashing old narratives about them that I told myself years ago.
But now I want to change that, I feel I have another opportunity. In recent years what's holding me back is a major caffeine & coffee addiction and diabetes. The caffeine/coffee addiction is out of control, but more to it, it affects my blood sugars, which when my blood sugars are affected I suffer mental health issues.
All told here, I want to start maybe a film blog here. A "quit addiction for a passion blog." As of now I'm one day off all caffeine and I want to keep the train rolling. Maybe a film, or (two), or (three), on and on, a day. Or films I'm collecting. On an on. All said I hope this helps me, and if you're all interested too, I hope it blesses you all as well. Here goes letting go of one bad thing and bringing home something good for another!
But now I want to change that, I feel I have another opportunity. In recent years what's holding me back is a major caffeine & coffee addiction and diabetes. The caffeine/coffee addiction is out of control, but more to it, it affects my blood sugars, which when my blood sugars are affected I suffer mental health issues.
All told here, I want to start maybe a film blog here. A "quit addiction for a passion blog." As of now I'm one day off all caffeine and I want to keep the train rolling. Maybe a film, or (two), or (three), on and on, a day. Or films I'm collecting. On an on. All said I hope this helps me, and if you're all interested too, I hope it blesses you all as well. Here goes letting go of one bad thing and bringing home something good for another!
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Imagine an eye unruled by man-made laws of perspective, an eye unprejudiced by compositional logic, an eye which does not respond to the name of everything but which must know each object encountered in life through an adventure of perception. How many colors are there in a field of grass to the crawling baby unaware of 'Green'?
-Stan Brakhage
Imagine an eye unruled by man-made laws of perspective, an eye unprejudiced by compositional logic, an eye which does not respond to the name of everything but which must know each object encountered in life through an adventure of perception. How many colors are there in a field of grass to the crawling baby unaware of 'Green'?
-Stan Brakhage
Last edited by Dog Star Man; 11-20-21 at 06:10 AM.