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I hate to cry in real life, particularly when I'm dealing with real life. It seems weak to me. I don't like to think of myself as weak or being accused of trying to manipulate and so on.
So I try not to cry at times like that. It doesn't feel emotionally safe to me. Sometimes I fail. When I'm really angry and feel I can't get through to someone particularly is difficult.
When I'm very tired and should already be asleep, I cry involuntary tears. Also when I'm gaging or impacted.
BUT I let myself go during a movie, hallmark card commercial, wife swap, Extreme home improvement and so on.
Another place that I find difficult not to cry at is live performances. I feel all that energy building up and knowing what it takes to put on a production, feeling the energy flow between the audience and the performer(s) I just can't help it.
At a Jazz club not long ago, I had a perfect Toreador kind of moment. It was art that was so emotionally touching and beautiful to me, I cried in a soft way all through the set, mesmerized.
That time I didn't even feel much embarrassment because it was just as it should have been. My tears were as much my tribute and appreciation to them as my applause.
I also cry at most weddings. That **** is so crazy emotional and stupid crazy.
Of course I cry at funerals and not just from loss but also because of how angry the BS words and ceremonies make me.
I cry a good bit, I suppose. In movies it's a safe release. I feel I have a great well of tears that needs a release valve.
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