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I loved the first two seasons, but I must say having recently finished 3 on Netflix, that the series is becoming too stressful to watch for me. With Breaking Bad, Mr. White was in a self-destructive spiral too, but he seemed to be addicted to that chaos and the feeling of power he experienced by working his way through whatever mess he created. It empowered him and he became stronger for it (not speaking to the price that power cost). I saw him as a caricature, somewhat, and was able to detach a bit from his journey. That allowed me to spectate his misadventures like watching a train wreck in action. With Jimmy, on the other hand, he means well and has a good heart but damn if he's just not the unluckiest, short-cut taking SoB ever. I literally felt depressed at the end of later episodes watching his world and those around him crumble, dramatically. The recording; The car accident; it just feels like he can never get an honest break. I feel such pity for him! Each step has been a punch to my own gut as if I'm there with him! Gosh, I feel nauseous just typing this remembering those last few episodes! Once S3EP9 ended, I avoided the next episode for a good week or two just from feeling sick at how his luck and personality affected others, and his obliviousness to it.
I could remove myself from Mr. White. Jimmy, though, is like an addict ape straddling the back of my shoulders, perpetually slapping me in my face screaming at me to move forward if only I could. Because of the added burden he's created by latching himself onto me. I do not know if I can avoid further seasons because they are so good. I do know, however, that I want to avoid them if at all possible because of how they will make me feel, after. It's great writing to stir something so deep, but it's becoming too unbearable for me.
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