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I'm going to consider this a site bug, and post this here. ;)

I've been seriously behind here for awhile now. I was trying to keep caught up enough to hide it, but it's only getting worse, so I may as well spill the beans . . . However, this is nothing I care to carry on about, or have a pity party over. I just need to finally admit I can't catch up . . . yet!

I owe you all a grill thread, set two of my stills game, an updated list on the theme game, and to have those freakin' horror movies totaled up.

To cut to the chase, I've been ill. My mother has severe Osteoporosis, and my father had MD. My spine is curved in too much these days, and I hurt a lot . . . Pretty much everywhere. I am about to go for my bone density test today, and in May I will be tested for many Neuromuscular diseases. I haven't got a problem letting you all know the end results, but again, I'm not into pity parties, so we all need to just act like we always have . . . even though I'm hardly on here as much as I use to be. Whatever it is, I'm sure I'll kick it's ass. I'm too bitchy and mean not to.

p.s. I swear I'll catch this ***** up soon. :p

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I hope everyone reads this and sees just how much Lisa does for this site. I think I speak for everyone when I say: take all the time you need! There are, of course, more important things than horror movie lists and grill threads. Oh, not many, mind you, but a few. ;)

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Lisa, we'd be lost without you around here, so take care of yourself first and foremost. We'll still be here waiting for you. And I'm not gonna say a word about the 'bitchy' comment, because I'm afraid of you. :)

Wishing all the best for you and your loved ones, Lisa.

*big hugs*

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I hope you and your family start feeling better, Des!

I recommend kicking back, taking it easy, and watching some movies. :)

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What he said.

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I know I joke around with you a lot D', but you are a goddess, I mean that. Hope things get better very soon. :kiss:

(sry the only "kissy" smiley wears lipstick, just paint in a 'stach and erase the red there would ya?)

If you change your mind about a "pity party"... I'll bring the booze... ;) :p

Seriously though... you know I love 'ya and am here is you need to talk, bitch, or whatever... big hugs...

Hey, if you guys have a party w/o me I will be so put out. :)

Thanks everyone! I agree, movies are some of the best medicine. I've been viewing loads of TV shows and movies, lately.

Speaking of the horror list . . . I was just working on it, and someone's list has errors.
Damn!

As far as the appointment I had today goes . . . I will get my results in about a week, but I did find out one thing today. I've been hunched down for so long, that I didn't realize my 5' 5" is now 5' 3-1/2".

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Best of luck with it all, Destiny. I have no idea how I could help, but should I ever be in that position, you only have to ask. :)

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How much money do you have? :p

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First you must rest and get better.

You're like the mother to mofo's, not in a you're old way, but in a you take care of us way.

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Take care of yourself, hon. :)

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Don't sweat it. :)

Hello, Destiny.
Hang in there, and hope you feel better.

Not enough. Why? What have you heard? :suspicious:

Thank you! :p

I heard you offer to help in any way you could, so I thought I'd see if you had any loose change on you. Like maybe a few hundred dollars . . . Maybe more . . . No?

Thanks again everyone, for all the sweet replies, comments, etc . . . They mean a lot to me. :)

Sorry honey, I only wish I did. Also, I should've added a :D or something to that suspicious smilie.

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You don't owe anybody here anything. Just rest. Or do what you have to do.

Well, my Lordosis therapy starts on Monday. No results yet on the Bone Density results, which is annoying.
As I said, my Neuromuscular disease testing is not until May. They seem to lean toward me having my father's MD, but I still believe that because of severe weakness in my core, and hurting my lower back a few times, it has led to the Lordosis. So, maybe by the time that MD testing is here, I will have already fixed the problem with proper therapy, etc . . .

Here's to me being right, and them being wrong.

I am sick of being sick. Stupid doctors!

Hugs Lisa... being sick sucks... but not knowing what's wrong always drives me toward that little edge...

Yep. When all this started over a year and a half ago, they assumed rather scary things about my condition. I got worse, and they assumed something different. They ended up wrong. I got worse, and they assumed something else . . .

June of 2008 is when all of this started. If I had Insurance, I would have been fixed a long time ago. We all know that this is true . . . Right?

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Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

My results are floating around somewhere. They say they don't have them, but according to the Breast Center, they should be there by now. Damn it to hell, all these dumb-ass, slack-ass, stupid mother ****ers I have to keep dealing with.

When I go postal, don't act all surprised.

Oh no. Everybody at the Breast Center better cover their breasts!

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My first therapy visit is 166. Follow up visits are 2-4 hundred . . . Damn!

I let them know real fast that I've spent the bulk of my life weight lifting, and doing aerobics. That I only needed them to show me exercises used in correcting Lordosis, and then I'd be fine on my own. :p

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So, my new doctor received the paperwork from my old doctor. She went over it with me today. I had that MRI September of 2008. He failed to tell me anything past . . . "Yeah, that came back OK. You're fine." . . . He left out the part about me having Osteoarthritis. Oh yeah, and bone spurs on my spine.

Freaking *******!

Sweet Destiny :kiss: Sorry to hear about your health :yup: You are a great person to have at this site :yup: we all :love: you, you have done so much work here, there are no words to express my gratefulness :nope: just don't leave us ever :nope: Our hearts http://bestsmileys.com/love2/6.gif would break, you are very special :kiss: :kiss: :kiss:

Sorry to hear of your ill health and suffering. Hope you're feeling better soon.

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Get plenty of rest, Destiny. I sincerely hope that your pains subside. :)

I've been away a bunch of days here and there. I got to where I couldn't walk much anymore. I had very severe pain, so I called my family, freaking out. I couldn't fight all this crap anymore, and I seriously wanted to die. I have a really bad habit of hiding my pain, and I sure don't dig crying in front of people. Anyway, lucky for me they know many people.

Yesterday I went to a wonderful doctor that actually cares about my pain (My mother and sister know him very well from their Church.) I also finally got to go to a certain therapist . . . a God in that field . . . He is THE best on the planet for therapy, for reasons I'll explain later. He also saw me because of my mother and sister. He is retired, and the other was loaded down with patients, but that sure didn't matter to either of them. All they had to do was hear what was happening to me, and they both saw me immediately. They didn't even charge me. (Maybe I'm dreaming!) Anyway, as I said, the therapist is retired, so I was taken to his home. He showed me the proper pain free therapy to straighten my spine back out. It will take time, but it will work. I feel very positive about that. The other doctor treated my pain . . . before the therapy lessons thank goodness . . . but he does have serious concerns about my uterus, and the severe pains that I am having across my stomach, so that is all scheduled out now. At the end of April they will do a pap, and an ultrasound to decide on what to do next. Of course they mentioned a Hysterectomy. I set the date in April, but it may be bumped up depending on how I continue to do. I'm trying to get some things sorted out in my life first. So as you can guess, I'm still going to be away more-so than not. If anyone is wondering why I didn't rush back to the ER like I did way back when . . . I called them one late night crying in pain, and explained my entire situation. They said that all they could do was set me up with doctors here and there (Not there in the hospital, but with different doctor's offices.) to be examined. That's how I ended up with Dr. Ass-hat almost 2 years ago. They said that they wouldn't be able to do anything for me that night because it wasn't life threatening, and/or they weren't set up for some of the testing that I obviously needed. Wasn't that charming!?!

Tatty, you once said that you knew how I felt. I honestly hope that isn't so. Out of all the pain that I've gone through, I've only had it treated 3 times, and out of almost 2 years, that's pure hell. I didn't deserve to have to suffer through it all, but I sure was left to do just that. I finally got to where I couldn't do it anymore. This is why I've made so many jokes in the past about becoming an alcoholic, or that I should smoke pot, or pop pills. No, I didn't really do those things, but I found that sarcasm helped. At times, anyways. I've also made numerous suicide/murder me jokes to the people around me in my day to day life. Needless to say, those didn't go over as well.

Anyway, finally, things are looking up. :)

p.s. If you have Insurance, and have an illness, freaking be happy that you are covered, and fight like hell. Search until you find the right person. Be grateful that you have the Insurance to do so. You have no idea how much harder it is when you aren't covered. I've suffered in many more ways than I'm even telling you about. It's been pure hell, but I sure didn't give up. Even when/if I said I would.

People that know me are right, I'm the most stubborn bitch on Earth. Apparently that's a good thing. Even if it does annoy a few people. ;)

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:up: I'm glad you're lookiing on the bright side and have found people who are true caregivers. I hope that all the treatments, therapy and the tests work out in your favor. You deserve it. Plus, your family needs you and loves you.

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Sorry to hear things have been so bad, Destiny. Here's hoping that these guys know what they're doing and get you back on the road to recovery. :)

Hope you find the right doc-- feel better!

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Great news, Lisa! Really glad to hear that. They say mere optimism can do a lot, so hopefully the news itself is a nice reprieve, too.

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Keep up the stubbornness! Glad you seem to have found a therapist that understands at last. Take care now xx

Just so those who read this know . . . I don't see me doing another thread, so if anyone asks where I am, direct them here . . . It's bumped up to next week, and I will probably have surgery by the end of the month, if not sooner. This past week or so has been real bad. I can't do therapy for my spine because of my uterus. It ended up hurting like hell. I can't fix the one, until they fix the other. I doubt I'm gone long, though. It's dangerous to just lay around. You must move about after a surgery like that.

I bet you guys wish I'd stop talking so blunt about female issues. Once you've given birth a few times, you run out of reasons to be shy. ;)

Sorry!

Totally. This thread is ground zero for cooties.

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You just make sure you take good care of yourself, Destiny. Put yourself first, be completely selfish, get better and then get your ass back over here cos we'll all miss you like mad. :) Good luck, honey.

Cross my fingers for you and hope that things will get better soon. :)
It´s clever to be optimistic. This attitude is a healer itself.

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Thanks guys, and the date of the 28th, that I bumped up to the 22nd, has now been bumped up to the 20th. Next Tuesday is the earliest I can get. I changed doctors just to bump it up as much as that. I really can't do this anymore. I wish I could go tomorrow, but I'll try not to stress and pout about it. Movies and TV shows are a fun distraction. I'll still have to tend to a bunch of things before then.

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Thinking of you, sweet Destiny :kiss:

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Love you Dest', My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I hope you get well A>S>A>P!! From what i have read you are a very nice person, and after all you are one of two friends in my list:)

amen to that!
Hope everything goes well for you girl, take care of yourself xxx

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wow Dest - knew you had the spine issue, but didnt know it was that bad. figured something must be up, b/c i have been popping in, and been like "hmm....where's Dest?" as youre typically always here. praying everything goes well in your treatment over the next few weeks, and youre right - thank God for family! :D

i dont have to tell you to be strong - we already know you are/ ;)! hang in there chica.

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Thanks guys! :)

40 hours, 7 minutes, and counting . . .

Keeping the candles burning... and my fingers, eyes, and toes crossed... hugs lady....

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Hope everything went well, Lisa! :)

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Love you D', get better babe.

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You know we're all here for ya. We're a family here at Mofo.

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Yep, we're all thinking of you, honey. :)

OK, I just had the other appointment today (ultrasound). I've felt too under the weather to hang out here in between the 2 appointments. No offense, of course. Anyway, one of the causes of enlarged uterus is uterine fibroids, and I was very positive that this was the cause of my problem. Ovarian cysts are another one of the other 4 causes of enlarged uterus. It's usually nothing, so no worries. I have one on my right ovary. They expect it to be gone by next month. This is common, it seems. If by chance it's larger, instead of going poof, they will remove it. Then I suppose they'll test it. It'll be gone, though. Cancer doesn't run in my family.

I kind of lied to my family, but my mother doesn't need to stress over this. A month of stressing, isn't anything she needs. It will end up being for nothing. Good thing no one knows I'm on this board. :p

I had an Ovarian cyst on my right ovary back when I was in college... hurt like a sum of a you know what...

Take care of yourself and get well... we miss you around here.