I am back here feeling worse than at the time of my last post in this thread, and yes, mainly motionless watching films all day long, even during working hours. I wish there was a genre that reliably “worked” for me at such times, but there really is not, though horror is the natural first port of call.

Must say that Resurrection with Rebecca Hall, peculiar as that is, did a pretty good job distracting me for a few hours last night.

I’m sorry you’re going through such a hard time, Agrippina. I wish there was more I could say, but just know, I actually like reading many of your posts. May not be much, I know.

Thank you, appreciated.

Have you thought of volunteer work? If you need distracting helping others is a great way to forget your troubles for a few hours.

When I’m feeling sorry for myself (not suggesting that you feel this way) I look around me at the many sick & desperate people there are on the streets. Our weather is brutal now & after church I always see a little tent pitched under the highway. How does the occupant keep warm? Then there are sick people & drug addicts & all kinds of unlucky people. My problems are usually ones I create for myself, but in many ways I am lucky.

Ha. In many respects which I won’t go into, all I do is charity of some sort; I sort shit for other people, including my mother, for free, for a living. But enough about that.

I did work with children a lot in the past but that was a while back. It’s an interesting thought, but I don’t have the energy.

I’m not feeling particularly sorry for myself, actually; this whole situation and my state of mind are entirely of my own making.