Turning Back Time [Archive]

r3port3r66

03-14-04, 11:02 PM

You're sitting there, lost. You keep thinking about how your life has turned into this thing that is a result of all your decisions. It's tough at first to think that you might have made the wrong choices in life. But you stand by them because most of the decisions were good ones. I'm mean not all choices in life are bad. In fact MOST of the choices we make are very, very good.

But there is one thing you did in the past that you wish you had done differently. And as you think hard about it--really hard--you are transported back in time and there you are, sitting or standing in that same place just about to make your choice. Only now, you know how your life will turn out, and you suddenly realize that this one decision will affect your life down the road.

Tell me, what is that situation. And would you change your mind and do something completely different?

Here's mine: I'm sitting in the office of Elite Modeling Agency. The woman interviewing me says I will have a great career in modeling if I sign with her. In fact, she'll see to it that I make well over $75,000 a year if I accept her offer. I don't because I'm too afraid it's a scam. Turns out it wasn't. And although I enjoy a nice career in entertainment, I wish I would have said yes. Damn it all to hell!

So, tell me, what would you change?

kaisersoze

03-15-04, 12:44 AM

I once saw a couple arguing with each other in the mall at the food court... they were going at it pretty loudly and everyone who was there could have seen that he was obviously a lot bigger than she was. But noone said anything, everyone just kindda stopped and stared as these two zoned out the rest of the world between them and screamed at each other.

Sitting only about 3 tables away I got a sick feeling in my stomach that he was about to hit her, but I too just sat there, I told myself "its not my problem - perhaps someone else would say something -I'm making it out to be more than it is -I'm sure security is on their way... blah blah blah". Then it happened, the lady start moving away, towards in my direction as he began advancing in a threating manner ..... and no more than two feet away from me, he punched her... square in the face.

Her neck sortta jerked back and she fell into an concussion (as I later learned), but at the time, from my viewpoint it seemed as though her neck snapped and she just fell lifeless. The thing is, I did have a breif split second to react but my body was debating... worrying about what a fool I would look like if I engaged in this lover's quarrel.... kindda stupid in retrospect since I was in the prime posistion to do something about it.

If I can go back, I wish I stood up and yelled out something, made him realize that the world was watching.... or if it came down to it I wish I did get up which would have bought me enough time to block that punch. and then return with a left and right.......... I would love to eat his children.

Monkeypunch

03-15-04, 12:58 AM

r3port3r66

03-15-04, 02:16 AM

Okay, this is a dangerous way to think. You spend any time thinking "I could have done THIS differently" and it WILL consume your life. Believe me, I KNOW. I have spent the last three months in my own private HELL, trying to figure WHAT I could have done to make Amy stay with me....But it ruined my life, it ruined several of my friendships, and it very nearly drove me to mental illness. So really, the past is the past. we all have regrets, but there is NO reason to keep dwelling on past mistakes and how we could have done things differently. It's self defeating behaviour. I'm not saying to forget about them, but move forward. The past can't be changed.

Sorry about the rant.....

No MP, you're right. Dwelling on the past is a dangerous endeavor. Perhaps living in your shoes for the past three months, not a one of us here could debate that. Some things that happen to us are hard to live with. I also believe that like in Kaiser's case and mine, there was a time when we could have made a difference in our lives. A single *tic* that swelled in our hearts that we could feel only for a moment. A moment we knew we had some control over, but not enough guts or sense to carry us into making the decision we knew we should make. In my case it was fear--almost fear of success. In our cases it was a point in time when we , and only we, had the opportunity to make a move. Perhaps that is not like your situation. But if you ever need to talk, there are alot of us here who would like to make that connection with you....

Monkeypunch

03-15-04, 02:52 AM

No MP, you're right. Dwelling on the past is a dangerous endeavor. Perhaps living in your shoes for the past three months, not a one of us here could debate that. Some things that happen to us are hard to live with. I also believe that like in Kaiser's case and mine, there was a time when we could have made a difference in our lives. A single *tic* that swelled in our hearts that we could feel only for a moment. A moment we knew we had some control over, but not enough guts or sense to carry us into making the decision we knew we should make. In my case it was fear--almost fear of success. In our cases it was a point in time when we , and only we, had the opportunity to make a move. Perhaps that is not like your situation. But if you ever need to talk, there are alot of us here who would like to make that connection with you....

Thank you. :)

nebbit

03-16-04, 01:56 AM

When i was about 12 years old, I thought i was quite tough, I was nasty to an Italian boy, I called him racially ignorant names, I made him cry, my parents would have killed me if they had heard, they had friends of all races, I wish I could go back and say sorry. :bawling: