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The thing isolated becomes incomprehensible
I have to say how much I admire Swan and all the people here who suffer from mental illness! Not being able to trust on what most people take for granted - the brain - must be one of the most terrifying feelings of all.
It happens to me a lot, when I'm sitting in a quiet and public place, like a library or even a teacher meeting in the school where I teach, I start to think what if I had one of those hallucinations crisis...

I don't know how would I live like that, but for what I know about Swan, man you're doing an amazing job!



Yeah, I definitely feel like the brain varies on sort of a broad spectrum rather than categorically. And they constantly change from day to day. I feel people who don't have any particular diagnosis might deal with stuff I deal with once in a while, or even maybe just once in their life. I'm not a doctor or a psychiatrist so I really don't know, but my psychiatrist basically once told me the same thing. We're not so different, you and I.

Maybe we're all crazy, deep down. I mean, I think I have a better head on my shoulder than a lot of people, like some corrupt politicians. Even if I deal with the bullsh*t I have to deal with, I'm a better person than someone like that. You know?



Yeah, I definitely feel like the brain varies on sort of a broad spectrum rather than categorically. And they constantly change from day to day. I feel people who don't have any particular diagnosis might deal with stuff I deal with once in a while, or even maybe just once in their life. I'm not a doctor or a psychiatrist so I really don't know, but my psychiatrist basically once told me the same thing. We're not so different, you and I.

Maybe we're all crazy, deep down. I mean, I think I have a better head on my shoulder than a lot of people, like some corrupt politicians. Even if I deal with the bullsh*t I have to deal with, I'm a better person than someone like that. You know?
One time in vegas after not sleeping for a couple days I was playing blackjack and I could hear peoples thoughts all the way on the other side of the casino. But I knew it wasn't real, it was more like.. damn I'm losing my mind from partying too long, i think it's time to go to bed.



The thing isolated becomes incomprehensible
Yeah, I definitely feel like the brain varies on sort of a broad spectrum rather than categorically. And they constantly change from day to day. I feel people who don't have any particular diagnosis might deal with stuff I deal with once in a while, or even maybe just once in their life. I'm not a doctor or a psychiatrist so I really don't know, but my psychiatrist basically once told me the same thing. We're not so different, you and I.

Maybe we're all crazy, deep down. I mean, I think I have a better head on my shoulder than a lot of people, like some corrupt politicians. Even if I deal with the bullsh*t I have to deal with, I'm a better person than someone like that. You know?
Definitely!! You are one of the most gifted persons I ever met, I think I already told you that!

And besides, you look like Stanley Kubrick, so, you're the man!!!



I didn't mean that story to imply any sort of mental illness, but to answer your question I don't hear voices but I am very dissociative when it comes to my thoughts.

Like most people I cannot stop thinking. If I try to meditate and clear my mind thoughts will keep coming at me. So are they really my thoughts, since I'm not trying to create them, and I don't want them.. they are a stimulus in the say way that our eyes and ears provide a stimulus. Our brain provides one too. So that's what I mean about an internal dialogue. I'll talk to myself inside my head and see what thoughts come, respond to it, wash rinse repeat.
You're much like me in a way. I think of things nice and uplifting and even watch videos of people helping each other on YouTube and cry for hours. Everything runs through mind -philosophy, the future of humanity etc. Then the next minute I think of death and suicide. I sometimes lose hours without realising it. And that's before I start drinking.



The thing isolated becomes incomprehensible
I'm glad I made this thread. It's fascinating to see how wacky people can be. I think this is even better than my old "MoFo Support Group" thread.
Yeah, btw, what happened to that?



I'm glad I made this thread. It's fascinating to see how wacky people can be. I think this is even better than my old "MoFo Support Group" thread.
Yeah, btw, what happened to that?
It's still around.



I'm just so damned cute I drive myself crazy!

Depression and social anxiety. I'm mostly over it, but some days are more fun than others.

I recall a day when Yoda basically told me to leave him alone because I was being all silly around him. I appreciate that he did that for me.



I'm just so damned cute I drive myself crazy!

Depression and social anxiety. I'm mostly over it, but some days are more fun than others.

I recall a day when Yoda basically told me to leave him alone because I was being all silly around him. I appreciate that he did that for me.
I think social anxiety is what started me drinking (seriously). Any social situation feels like an inquisition to me, which is probably why I get drunk and do silly things to impress and feel excepted.



You don't have to be an alcoholic to be liked here, Slob. Actually, I'd love to know a non-crazy Sci-Fi Slob.



I met him over two years ago on another corner of the internet. He tried to get me to join here months ago, and I finally decided that maybe I can meet people.



Master of My Domain
I met him over two years ago on another corner of the internet. He tried to get me to join here months ago, and I finally decided that maybe I can meet people.
Well then I better not mess with you, or else I could get banned.



Like jrs. Gone for good he is, I just found out.
Hey now. I ain't here to cause trouble or hijack threads.



Master of My Domain
Depression, extreme social anxiety and OCD. Yay me.
Welcome back JayDee, and welcome to the party. Yay us people.



I've had paruresis (shy bladder) most of my life but it's never been crippling. Mostly just an inconvenience and frustration since it is a part of my body that I'm helpless to control. I would plan around it, not drink at beer pong tournaments, etc and it was no problem to go out for 6 hours without voiding.

But now with the comorbidity of my other bladder problems (interstitial cystitis, dysuria) it's the worst. Now it's a physical problem too that makes it really difficult to void. Some people become 100% reliant on catheters. But I tried one of those once, i turned white and my whole body instantly became damp and i almost threw up or passed not. Not sure which but catheters are not an answer for me.

But anyway with this physical problem now on my good days when I'm not drinking any water I can last for about 2 hours. On a bad day every 5 minutes. It's super painful to have anything in my bladder, it feels acidic, and it's completely impossible to use any public restroom since I can barely even use a private one now. It's such a mess I haven't been able to work for 2 years. Sometimes I'll wake up 18 times in a night and I can be in bed for 14 hours and still not be rested because my sleep quality is so bad. Maybe if I didn't have the paruresis too I'd be able to still live a somewhat normal life.. maybe not because of the pain and concentration issues. But this comorbidity is a kick in the balls.
OMG! Remember how I said I have a bunch of issues? Well I totally forgot about this one because I haven't really been out anywhere lately. I discovered it on the 8th grade Washington trip - after a couple hours on the bus I had to go so bad - waited in a long line when we finally made a rest stop, and when it was my turn up at bat (with another long line behind me) I couldn't go.

Luckily I don't have the related problems foster describes - my sympathies, buddy, some of that sounds pretty awful. For me, it seems totally dependent on the social environ of the "public" restroom. Now, if faced with the dilemma I just go in a stall if possible.