After I decided to leave the forum I wrote that ton of offensive comments in order to force me to not post anymore because I would be scared of people's reactions. To put into more clearly, I decided to rant over and make everybody hate me so that I wouldn't desire to post anymore.
That left a bad feeling in my mouth and I reflecting on my past behavior I see that I was extremely immature and disrespectful to the other members over the past two years. As a result to feel better I decided to write this apology post to people here.
One thing about the fights I had with other forum members is that they all were about the same field: I was ranting that people were ignorant about anime, didn't watch it and didn't understand it. Well, of course, if I join a forum with this name obviously I shouldn't expect people here to have such niche interest thus I was an idiot in expecting that people here would be anime buffs like me. So I my apologies about it: I was really stupid in my past behavior.
Another thing I was mad with the forum, well, after being insulted for 18 months, it gets to you (even if initially it did not) and makes you angry. Anger takes over and you lose ability to reason and to be reasonable with people. (obligatory Miyazaki citation) Miyazaki said that the tentacles coming out from the skin of the demon god in Princess Mononoke symbolized that state when hatred takes over and you lose the ability to reason as something comes out of you and takes control. I was like that for the past few months. Sorry for offending Mark F who is a person that I actually respect by a good deal.
I have lost general interest in movies now. So I wouldn't post very regularly but I plan from time to time to check the forum out.
That left a bad feeling in my mouth and I reflecting on my past behavior I see that I was extremely immature and disrespectful to the other members over the past two years. As a result to feel better I decided to write this apology post to people here.
One thing about the fights I had with other forum members is that they all were about the same field: I was ranting that people were ignorant about anime, didn't watch it and didn't understand it. Well, of course, if I join a forum with this name obviously I shouldn't expect people here to have such niche interest thus I was an idiot in expecting that people here would be anime buffs like me. So I my apologies about it: I was really stupid in my past behavior.
Another thing I was mad with the forum, well, after being insulted for 18 months, it gets to you (even if initially it did not) and makes you angry. Anger takes over and you lose ability to reason and to be reasonable with people. (obligatory Miyazaki citation) Miyazaki said that the tentacles coming out from the skin of the demon god in Princess Mononoke symbolized that state when hatred takes over and you lose the ability to reason as something comes out of you and takes control. I was like that for the past few months. Sorry for offending Mark F who is a person that I actually respect by a good deal.
I have lost general interest in movies now. So I wouldn't post very regularly but I plan from time to time to check the forum out.