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Well if any of you MoFo's need something to ponder on, take a hack at this. It may have more to do with my personal life than most would prefer, but it also has to do with dreams.
I'll start by saying that i am in an amazing relationship. It is long distance, but i know it's the real deal. Like, long-term marriage & kids kind of stuff. I've loved her for years, and I know I always will.
What does it mean, then, when a dream comes along that seems to betray these feelings? For instance, last week i had a dream where i was alone with this other girl, (a mutual friend of ours.) I remember experiencing very genuine feelings for this other girl within the dream. I reached out, touched her, kissed her. If it were a simple sex dream, that is, motivated by physical attraction, then i wouldnt be worried. But these were realistic emotions.
I awoke in a sweat. Those feelings in my dream didnt follow me into my waking life, but i was thinking about it all day.
Now here's the kicker; this isnt the first time something like this has happened. I often have dreams where i function as a very different person. My thoughts, emotions, feelings, likes and dislikes can change in so many different ways in the deep reaches of my subconscious.
What does this indicate? I have always believed in the power of the mind. I like to think that our minds are the closest physical manifestation of divinity. For me, faith and the mind are very closely linked, so if a dream sticks out at me, i tend to listen.
There are simple answers, sure. My friends would tell me that i fear commitment and this dream is exemplary of that. My old stress counselor, as he called himself, would say i need to take more hot baths and long walks. Frued would tell me to stop fantasizing about my mother.
But me, i know there is something behind this. It is my faith that assures me of that, but it is my humanity that has got me so determined to figure out what that is.
Any ideas?